I have too little energy left to be endearing or prophetic, the kids were pretty dang bad today. They were defiant, exploitive, and rude and with no other teachers or a principals around the entire school for support I was simply out numbered. I was kind enough to show a movie with popcorn and m&m's and they even complained about that.
The saddest part is that they're not all deserving of this frustration. I need to make more of an effort to tell those students that work hard, are kind, and help others what a great job they are doing and how much I appreciate them. Unfortunately the squeaky (or in this case lazy, negative, depressed, misbehaved, wheel) seems to always get the grease.
I just wish that I had more days that left me happy, energized and feeling appreciated instead of exhausted, frustrated, and devalued.
I'll just file these last two days away in my bulging mental file of crappy days right next to my scanty good days file for review when bigger life decisions come knocking on the door, and, sadly, that will be that, and not for lack of effort or understanding.
I'll be at work ALL DAY tomorrow too for inservice so feel free to shoot me a note, I could use some words of encouragement.